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The activity of list-making is an eclectic process that enables us to draw on varied, fragmentary sources, and simultaneously negotiate their meaning. It allows us to admire the creative potential of what is accumulated as we begin to see the items listed within historically changing conversations.[1]  It incites memories and enables us to exchange stories. The anthropologist Anna Tsing has referred to lists as harbouring “codified knowledge.” They reveal insights into sensitive historical and socio-political concerns and enable historically marginalized people to create their place in negotiations for their resources and rights.

As part of my own research about the impact […]

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my head is split

there is a stone in my stomach

I am worried

my neck hurts

my back hurts

heat moves up in my body

I feel cold

my mouth pulls to the side

I can’t move my arm

I am afraid to go blind

the tears keep coming

I feel nervous

my blood goes up

my heart races

I can’t sleep

I can’t wake up

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this is the language of SymptomSpeak

a language that is fragmented, exhausting and unbearable

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Headache

Worries

Sadness

Blood pressure

Nervousness

Pain

Sleeping problems

Stress

Back pain

Impaired eyesight

Heart problems

Stomach pain

Paralysis

Neck pain

Breathing problems

Chest pain

Feeling cold

Dizziness

Eating problems

Losing one’s mind

Fear

Heat

Losing consciousness

Lack of energy

Nightmares

Noises in the head

Suicidal thoughts

Tiredness

Claustrophobia

Collapsing

Cramps

Diabetes

Losing one’s head

Pressure

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“I get nervoz a lot.” Shkurta tells me, looking out the window onto the snowy farmyard.

I had meant to start small talk by asking her how she was doing; but, a reference to “nerves” doesn’t allow the space for this. Instead, it creates an opportunity for women to describe their pain and suffering as well as their dissatisfaction and frustration with the wider context of their experience within the family, the community, and the state.

So, I asked: “What happens when you feel that way?”

“I have headaches, I have low blood pressure, I have nervoz. Sometimes, something sour comes up and I feel […]

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Today is the International Day of the Disappeared. Sitting on the floor, with our backs pressed against the couch, Teuta and I watch televised pictures of hundreds of people marching through Kosovo’s major cities demanding to know the fate of their loved ones. Women, dressed in black, solemnly carry oversized portraits of their husbands, sons, and fathers. White banners are held high calling for truth and justice from local and international authorities as the sounds of wreath ceremonies, interviews, and speeches, echo in the room.

Behind us, on the living room wall, hangs a large frame with the portraits and names of fourteen […]